The Seperation

There is love in holding and there is love in letting go as well.. .

What is this life full of fear, I had no time to stand and stare. It seems like I am stucked in a weave of never-ending thread of thoughts but I know its all due to fear that hinders me from going ahead and with utmost grief, I return back to the real. There are things I want to say which have some truth and some fabrications but I withhold all this within like a sun setting in the deepest of the oceans, may be because my fears are bigger and I have no option for escape or to go here and there. Though, there are days, when I manage to recollect broken me and wish to say it all and burst all aloud but somehow, the fear of unknown has subsided deep within and I doubt if I say those connects built over span of time will be vanished somewhere and I will not be able to present the real show, but would just roam around bewildered here and there.

Hey! Yes you! Believe me and don't worry, time will surely play its part and one fine day, I am sure you will have Mr.Luck and Lady Destiny all by your stride. That day you will have no fears and you will walk around in blooms of joy,so lively and in spaces with soothing breeze, with no fears of unknown and loosing things apart. That day shall come and it will be truly and by far yours and only yours!

Why was one’s own mind a traitor? Might be we lose our vision of thoughts laid ahead when it comes to our loved ones?

Surbhi is still troubled by the memory of stormy thoughts between Ravi and herself. On a freezing cold night, standing by the side of the door, she,in deepest of her thoughts was looking at narrow path, leading to her husband’s office, remembering the tragic day. That day was just one like normal. As Surbhi was packing Tiffin for their daughter Sanya, the door bell rang as it was time for the milkman. She rushed and collected milk, made breakfast, did the needful for her kid and husband. As they left for their way from home,she gave them best wishes pour with tons of affection and love for the beautiful day ahead and restored back to her daily chores. The day was all fine and smooth, and suddenly, she received a call from her husband’s office that the latter has got a heart attack. In a state of panic, the broken lady,somehow, managed to collect herself with sheer will and faith in God and rushed to hospital, where all the necessary formalities were being done already. Fortunately, she found found a auto nearby and reached closeby hospital in no time. However, by the time she reached, the doctor had done the bypass surgery and the man full of life,was declared to be in a state of coma.

The black day has passed by and today as Surbhi remembers that day, she seem to have the same pain that her husband might had once suffered owing to the heart attack- The pain of separation is it?

After long 14 years of marriage and waiting, Surbhi has finally decided to move on from that web of thoughts which had troubled her day and night and worries that kept her saying “What If?”

Her daughter Sanya, looked at her with a gleam of hope and said: “It will be all fine”. Both the mother and the daughter walked their way to the room where Ravi was laid to rest since 14 long years with few signs of improvement and in hope that he will soon wake up and laugh as never before. It looked as if the walls had also gone old, seeing this man in the same state, day and night, seasons after seasons, and years after years…and so on. Today, as Surbhi and Sanya, looks at the fine body,lying in the calmest of the positions with no worry lines, they both in the deepest of their hearts, prayed and wished and hope that the man of the family comes back to life.

Surbhi,had already run shortage of funds, looking after Sanya’s education and Ravi’s daily care needs, medicines and the like. Today, with heavy heart, no ray of hope, both the ladies have taken decision to put the man to calm forever and send him to fairy land, where he will be taken care of even better , a land with no requirement of artificial way of breathing and life-support system, to a land, where he can converse among people alike him and walk around freely under clear blue-skies and fresh green lawns.

All this while, Surbhi gets nostaligic and wished to re-live all those ups and downs of life again..again.. once again. . .!